I came into this world as an Indigo child, but it wasn’t until adulthood that I learned how to navigate it.
It took falling ill for the third time—when my nervous system was stripped down to its core—for my true self to rise: my Indigo essence.
This part of me has always guided me forward, but without proper containment, my frequency overwhelmed me more than it supported me.
Now, I’ve given birth to my authentic self—one whose frequency is no longer chaotic, but finely tuned, grounded, and powerful.
And that has become my greatest strength.
Core Traits of an Indigo Soul
Here’s the classic Indigo blueprint:
– Highly intuitive – often claircognizant or clairsentient (I’m both)
– Deep inner knowing – we carry encoded ancestral or cosmic wisdom
– Fierce sense of justice – we can’t not call out lies or imbalance
– Non-conformist by nature – don’t box us in, Karen
– Emotionally intense and empathic – we feel everything, especially what others suppress
– Allergic to authority – especially when it’s corrupt or soul-less
– Receives intuitive guidance – through nudges, inner knowing, and subtle signals that don’t come from the logical mind.
– Old soul vibes – even as kids, we felt more like adults
– Mission-driven – enter my EMF awareness with Aires mission
– Trouble with systems – school, work, rules… anything too rigid or dumb
– Can seem mysterious or misunderstood – we broadcast a soul frequency most people aren’t trained to receive
– Often experience early trauma or awakening – which “activates” the Indigo energy prematurely
How I Found Out I’m an Indigo
We Indigos often feel like outsiders. Misunderstood. Misplaced. Like we were dropped onto Earth without instructions.
There’s a loneliness we carry—not because we’re alone, but because we don’t fully belong to the world as it is.
One day, a friend invited me to a spiritual fair. I said yes—half curious, half craving answers I didn’t know I was seeking.
That day, I had two separate readings, and both practitioners ended by saying the same thing:
“Thank you for letting me do this reading.
It’s always a gift to connect with an Indigo child.”
I was stunned.
They hadn’t asked me anything. They just knew. And in that moment—so did I.
It clicked instantly.
I could finally name a part of me I’d sensed since the age of five, but had never been able to explain.
Where It Went Wrong
The Indigo codes were always there—etched into my aura, embedded in my DNA, echoing through my ancestral line.
But like a seed, it needed a moment to crack open.
Many Indigos describe an early moment of shock or trauma that activates their deeper perception. Mine came when I locked eyes with a snake at age five. The fear I felt wasn’t just mine—it was ancestral. Primal.
My body went into fight, flight, and freeze—all at once.
That moment was my antenna activation.
Like BZZZZZK 💥 — system online, all frequencies flooding in.
Suddenly, I wasn’t just five-year-old Tani anymore.
I was five-year-old Tanimara—starborn, multidimensional, and wide open.
My auric field expanded. My nervous system became hypersensitized.
My subtle perception turned on before my physical body had time to mature or filter it.
From That Moment On
I was an adult empath in a tiny body.
Every room felt too loud.
Every energy, too intense.
Every emotional undercurrent, too much.
And the density of the world became unbearable at times.
I wasn’t too sensitive.
I was too open.
What That Meant for a Child’s Body
1. Emotional Overload
I wasn’t just feeling my emotions—I was absorbing the grief, chaos, and unspoken pain of everyone around me.
And as a child, I had no way to separate what was mine from what wasn’t.
2. Chronic Overstimulation
Bright lights, loud noises, crowded rooms—even school—felt like a battlefield.
My nervous system was overloaded before adolescence.
3. Early “Parentification”
I became the emotional adult in the room. The wise one. The peacemaker.
But inside, I just wanted someone to hug me, protect me, and whisper: “You don’t have to carry this.”
4. Identity Confusion
When you’re constantly tuning into others, you lose your signal of self.
I felt everything—but had no idea who I was in the middle of it all.
5. Somatic Symptoms
All that sensitivity had to land somewhere.
It lived in my body: stomachaches, insomnia, skin flare-ups, and eventually, nervous system breakdowns like electro-sensitivity and chronic Epstein-Barr.
6. Isolation + Feeling “Too Much”
I was told I was too emotional, too dramatic, too soft.
So I learned to mute my magic.
I toned myself down, pretended to be tougher, or disappeared altogether.
I Used to Be Wide Open. Now I’m Tuned In.
No wonder the Epstein-Barr virus found a comfortable home in my body—and EMFs reached all the way to my cells.
I had no choice but to learn how to fly the spaceship that is my body.
How did I do that?
The Mindvalley courses Duality and Ultramind became the missing manuals I never received at birth.
And now—bit by bit—I’m becoming the master of my own frequency.
The Indigo Becomes the Oracle
I was flooded too early.
My soul opened too wide, too fast.
And now, with love, patience, and practice, I’m narrowing the beam—choosing what I want to tune into.
I’m still receiving, but now it’s intentional.
I’m still empathic, but no longer porous.
I’m still Indigo—but now I’m in command.
That’s what this season of my life is about.
The Indigo grows into the Oracle.
And the Oracle?
She gets to rest, receive, and radiate in peace.
We crave truth the way others crave comfort.
We’re here to make sense of the chaos, to feel the unspoken, and to alchemize pain into clarity—for ourselves, and for the world.
That’s why this blog was born 💙.
Not just to tell my story—but to coach you through the unseen.
The things we feel but don’t yet have language for.
The invisible currents that shape our health, our sensitivity, our path.
I write to help you name what you always knew—but couldn’t quite explain.
Because Indigo souls?
We don’t just survive this world. We decode it.
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The Indigo Healing Guide
Fifteen years of living with Epstein-Barr, post-viral fatigue, and quantum sensitivity — distilled into the guide I desperately needed and couldn’t find anywhere. Part memoir, part manual. Written for anyone navigating the invisible gaps where medicine ends and embodied wisdom begins. I made it because I needed it. And because you might too.
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I’m Tani — writer, educator, and someone who has spent fifteen years learning to read her own body like a map. Based in Amsterdam, I navigate the crossroads of EMF awareness, post-viral healing, and nervous system regulation. Not from theory — from lived experience. This space exists for the ones who feel things deeply, who sense what others miss, and who are done being told it’s all in their head. If that’s you — come find your people. Follow me on Instagram @tanistates, tag me when something here lands, and let’s build something real together. Your story might just be the one someone else needed to hear.